Melinda Gordon authentically is pissing me off

i watch Ghost Whisperer and i've been watching it since the show first started. i thought it was pretty cool, and i liked that Jennifer Love Hewitt's character was so different from the other teen-movie roles she's had. i liked her vintage-ness.

but now, in the most recent season, and the one before, she's been pissing me off. i've noticed she only has one real emotion that she shows. or at least, JLH just shows one same face over and over again. i think she also has this thing about her - Melinda, not JLH - when she tells people that she has a "gift." i'm getting annoyed with each episode she says that. "i have a gift." ...she should just hand out cards saying that she's a counselor or something because no one ever believes her when she says she can see and talk to ghosts. and when that happens, she always has this self-righteous complex she goes into, having to prove to them that she can in deed see and talk to ghosts.

and the whole Jim-Sam storyline is so retarded. oh, i'm sorry, "mentally challenged." whatev. it's retarded. who the fuck came up with the idea to have Jim (Melinda's husband) DIE, but then have his SPIRIT go into the body of a man named Sam who was just about to die, but came back to life. so the SPIRIT of Jim is now in the BODY of Sam. someone explain to me how that makes sense? and trust me, it doesn't do well in the show. it was so unnecessary.

a lot of shows i used to be big fans of are really disappointing me. EXAMPLE: HEROES.

Heroes used to be a cool show. during FIRST SEASON. after that the writer's started adding in new characters with powers, not finishing past storylines which caused fans to ask, "what happend to so-and-so?" i think that where the show is right now, it has completely gone off track from what it originally was. and it's sad. it really was a fun show in the beginning.

another example: SUPERNATURAL. i fucking love Supernatural. but i have a lot of beefs with this show as well:
-stopped doing the fun "urban legend" episodes like how it was in the first season and instead has gone into angels and demons. (no, not the Dan Brown book)
-angels always piss me off. they're dumb and obnoxious.
-the writers of the show, who are all male, can't seem to write a decent female character without making her a bitch or a slut.
-they turned Sam into a demon-blood-loving-junkie. and he's really annoying now.
-Sam is having this weird, kinky sex relationship with a demon. that just...makes no sense to me.
-i get real irritated with the fans of this show because most of the fans are teenage girls that only watch it for the hot guys on tv. god. damn.

*****

i JUST got a call from Jamika. she and everyone were at Will's for a cast party. for The Shape of Things? which was...how many months ago? haha.

it was cool getting to talk to some people, if it was only a few sentences and whatnot. but still, it was nice. and i got updated on some stuff. *cough-Chris-and-Kristina-what-the-fuck?-cough*

Jamika also went into the house and yelled, "hey! everyone! Zaida's on the phone!" or something along those lines. and then everybody yelled back. truthfully all i heard was "alerjasodifuawejfasldkfalserjwoiejsdnfalskdfwie!!!" but i also made out some "hi Zaida!" here and there. it was funny.

but it was really sad. hearing everyone have a really good time on the other end of the phone. i knew things would go on without me, duh, of course it would. but...i don't know. i wish it didn't.

a part of me wats to be a spoiled little kid and have everything remain the same without me there. i don't want anyone to change. i don't want new things to start and old things to end with me gone.

i want to capture the world i left at Linfield in a jar, with everyone and everything exactly the way they were, the way i remembered them. i want to take that jar, hold it close to my chest and close my eyes as tight as i can...