Taking things a day at a time

Tuesday, October 13, 2009


Duuuude. :) I'm way stoked about the poetry slam today. I got second place. Chicka-chicka-YEAH!

I will say, though, I was nervous as fuck alllll day. And it was worse for the hour before the slam started. I tried going over it in my head and timing myself, but I kept screwing it up and I was getting real stressed over it. I could feel myself breathing harder and I had to literally stop, take a deep breathe in, and try to relax. But once Sean-Joseph came I forgot about it. He's a good distraction. :P Oh, but damn, once I started walking back to my seat, I was shaking soooo bad! I've never physically felt myself shake that way before, it kinda scared me. I think it was because of the fact that I just performed my own poem, and also because it was about Sumner, and that's still real emotional for me.

Jigga J won first, again. Haha, he's actually not a total tool like I thought he was. It was just that first poem he did last month, it was so obnoxious. But this time I tolerated his poem, about his best friend Krista or something. I do have to admit, he uses his words like instruments. He's good, although somewhat heavy on the amount of metaphors. Sometimes just using plain, old, simple English would suffice. But James (Jigga J) did come up to me after and told me how he liked it and he said I was real brave for sharing something like that. :)

Sean-Joseph and Pat came. Pat didn't even know I signed up for it, so when he saw me he went "no ways!!! dude you're gonna rock it!" Also, Keely (Wayland's sister) came too. She told me after that she was starting to tear up when I was performing.

Here's the youtube link to the video. I also put it up on Facebook.

And I guess I didn't have to cut so much of it; because you know when you're nervous you talk faster? Yeah, I had about 15-20 seconds I could've used. But, better to make the time than be over it. I got two 10's for my scores. Although the lowest one this dickwad gave me was a 9.1!! What an ass. Haha, nah, if that's what he really thought of it, then fine. But I heard couple boo when he put up his score. :P HA!

Also, when I walked off or something, I heard someone yell, "we love you, Zaida!" and I know that I didn't know that person. So that was kinda neat. I'm bummed I won't be here for next month's slam. I leave for OR that day. Right after my class I gotta book it to the airport, so I miss it. :(

I think #1 for my list today is perfect.

Thankful Tuesday:
1. I am thankful for all of my friends who support me in what I love to do, whatever it may be. It means so much just to know that there are people out there that are cheering me on.
2. I am thankful for being able to know Sumner. He really did change my life. <3
3. I am thankful for myself, and having the courage to share my own personal thoughts and experiences of and about Sumner with complete strangers. I didn't think I could do it, but, I did.

Even though I forgot my sculpture at home and mom had to bring it to school, and I didn't finish my Hawaiian due tomorrow. Then work was kinda junk tonight and I got a stupid paper cut from the boxes...I'm still really happy about the slam. ^____^ And thanks, guys, for the good wishes about the slam. It worked!!

Auuuriiiiite. Māluhiluhi loa au!

Song of the day: "Abraham, Martin, and John" by Dion and the Belmonts


Blogger J. Cordelia said...

Yay! Congrats!!!! That's so awesome. I remembered when I performed a monologue I had written with a group of people--half of them strangers and the other half was people I worked with and really didn't want knowing my personal business, haha. But I had the whole nervous feeling all day and I was shaking afterwards.

But, really, that's way cool! I'm excited for you.

I'm glad you posted the video. You sounded great. Snaps for Zaida :)

October 14, 2009 at 8:33 AM  

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