Taking things a day at a time

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Speedy recovery, please!

Talk To Me Tuesday
Tweet from imsalmasekela (Sal Masekela)
Februrary 9, 2010

"You do what you can. Other times you do what you have to. But sometimes you gotta say f**k it."

I've kept this on my phone since the ninth, just to open it and read it every so many days. I don't know what prompted Sal to tweet this particular quote/saying, but I'm glad he did. I bring this up now for several reasons. Of course, there's my cold that I've had for over a week. Since elementary school, I've always gone to school even when I was sick, I'm just not the kind of person to miss class, even if we're not doing anything important or learning new material. I just go to school. That's how I am. But I haven't been to school in almost a week. Normally I would've been pushing myself to get up early and catch the bus to school, then walk myself back home. This time, however, I said no to myself. I needed to get better and healthier fast, for rehearsals sake. I need my voice back to sing, and I need to be able to feel up to the dancing, and just...socializing with the cast. So this week I said "fuck it" to my anal-school-going self, and it's been working slowly. I feel better, but I still think I'll take tomorrow to really regain my strength and health.

The other, more obvious part, is about the bullshit that's been happening at rehearsal. With my friends being douchebags, to my choreographer being an idiot, I've been so annoyed lately and going there sick hasn't helped either. If Deidre tells me she's picking another girl, then fine. If she still keeps telling me to practice the cartwheel with Kurt, fine. I'll try, and that's really all I can do.

I watched Precious today online. And I was surprised at how small of a roll Mariah Carey had. From what I'd heard, they hocked up her part a lot more than it should've been. Her role wasn't that prominent, or at least that's what I thought. Wish I got to see it in theatres though, but I had no one to go with. I admit most of my friends wouldn't have been able to handle that kind of domestic drama and reality. All of them live cookie cutter lives compared to mine.

Why is CURLING an Olympic sport? Someone, please, answer me that because I am perplexed.

One of the son's of my castmate came up to me today and we had this conversation:
Boy: How old are you?
Me: Almost 21. How old are you?
Boy: Almost 7.
Me: Wow, you're getting old buddy.
Boy: Yeah, but I'm ready for it. *pause* Why don't you wear girl pants?
Me: *confused* What?
Boy: Your pants are kinda baggy around your legs, like my dad's and uncle's. Girl pants are tighter.
Me: *deadpan, no real expression* I don't know. I thought I was wearing girl pants.
Boy: No, you should wear real girl pants so you'd look more like a girl.

Then he skips off, all happy-like and such. I so wanted to trip that kid as he skipped away. My friend was sitting next to me and she started laughing. Her verdict is that I need to buy skinny jeans, or something of the like, so that I wear "girl" pants. It was such a strange, embarrassing, insulting, and rather annoying moment at rehearsal tonight. -_-

Also, I love supporting my Asians in these Olympic games! Dude, the women's short series skating tonight...whoa! Japan and Korea?! Holy snap, they were fantastic!! Perfection, really.

I also support those Asian-American, cough, APOLO OHNO!!!!!! Chee-pono!! :) Dude. He was here back in 2006 after the Olympics. He was on the radio, at this Saturday morning show I would listen to, and damn! I wanted to be there so badly! Haha. He's pretty cool, if you know about his childhood and past. He was kinda rogue in his teen years. And I completely understand his relationship with his dad, who is Japanese. But it's even more awesome that Ohno came to realize how much his dad was there to support him and help him with his career, considering that his mom walked out on them.

Is it just me, or does Ohno kinda look like Jonathan Brandis??

It's actually the second picture of Ohno that I saw and immediately did a double take, thinking that it was really Jonathan Brandis. Even if it is just me who sees the similarity, I'm all right with that.

J. Brandis was one of my faves. <3 I miss that actor, a lot.

Song of the day: "Milk and Cereal" by G Love and the Special Sauce

PS: Thanks, guys, for everything you left in my comments from my last blog. Sometimes it's really, really, ridiculously (good looking...anyone get that Zoolander reference?) hard not to get sensitive and offended about one's physicality. But having friends that support helps a lot. :)


Blogger J. Cordelia said...

That's an awesome way to look at things. I wonder that too, sometimes, what's going on that makes someone tweet/say/write a certain thing.

I do what you did, too. I keep certain texts just because they're helpful to see over and over again. Most of them I delete after some time, but I've had the same text from my mom on my phone since last October.

It's good that you've taken time off to get yourself healthy. I used to be really anal about going to school no matter what, but I got to college and I was like, "Meh, fuck it." haha.

I'm glad you got to watch Precious. I was surprised at how small Mariah Carey's role was too. I mean, she won awards! I didn't think it was that amazing. What surprised me over all was Mo'Nique's performance. I heard all of the awards talk, but she made me feel for her character in the end and I really didn't want to. I think she deserves the awards she's getting.

Curling isn't a sport... We both know that, the Olympic Committee hasn't caught on yet, though.

You don't need to buy skinny jeans. If you want to buy them, that's one thing. But no one (and I mean no one) needs to buy those things. I, for one, will be glad when this fashion trend passes because some of us like to feel comfortable in our jeans, as well as to not get a workout when trying to take them off.

Anyway, they do look a lot alike. It's like they could be siblings. It's such a strong resemblance.

February 24, 2010 at 9:57 PM  
Blogger Alessa said...

Z! Sorry I have been AWOL. Rehearsal... you get it.

First what I want to say in response to your blogs that I have read but have not commented on.

I am also self conscious about my body. Especially when I get my wedding dress and they ask me if I have gotten fat because the dress looks too small (They told me to order a smaller size, because it would be easier to alter. Because my boobs are too small), Alethia tells me I have to wear a body slimmer (a big elastic tube to make me look thinner) because my boob are too small and the bottom of the tops are too tight, AND Andrew Purcell comments on how we weigh the same and that means I am fat. Sorry... I didn't mean to make it all about me. I just mean, I understand.

Also, I guess that means I wear boy pants too. I don't even own skinny jeans. Or tight jeans or whatever. I am not a skinny jean person. Personally, I like to move in my pants. I agree with Jamika... Forget that little kid. You rock just the way you are. I like your fashion. I love all of your awesome shirts! I wouldn't want you any other way.

Also, one last thing I want to say... I like that text. It's a great one to keep. I sometimes write quotes like that on my bathroom mirror so I can look at them over and over.

Keep up being awesome. I miss you! Also, I hope you do feel better.

February 26, 2010 at 12:06 PM  

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