Taking things a day at a time

Sunday, November 29, 2009

Guess I am a phone bitch,

but I'm fine with that.

Got the Samsung Comeback yesterdayyyy!!! :) And I'm very happy about it. I figured, might as well get it now while there was the sale and the deal was good. Plus, the guy helping us at Radio Shack was cool and actually helped us choose a cheaper plan than what I was thinking of getting. All in all, I'm not regretting getting this new phone and switching BACK to Team Mobile.

I'm still getting used to the keypad though. That's a little weird sometimes. They keys are also kinda tiny, narrow, actually. But I'm sure I'll adjust.

So I ran into my friend Jonah yesterday right after we got our new phones, and he was shopping for clothes for Winter Ball. Apparently Kamehameha is bringing back Winter Ball. I never had one, years before me never had one. I think the last time KS had Winter Ball and Homecoming stuff like that, was probably sometimes in the '70s. Or maybe early 80s. But still it was a loooong time ago. I'm curious as to why they're all of a sudden bringing them back.

Sing Me A Song Sunday
"Don't Stop Believin'" by Ahmir
My friend Tiana yet again showed me the light with this song. She wants to choreograph this as the finale number for the dance concert at our high school. I think it's a perfect song for finale. Anyways, besides that, it's one of those songs that sample older songs, again. It just can't be helped; what's good is good so everyone wants to use it. The chorus goes, "Don't stop believing, this is a journey not a destination." And I think that's seriously one of the coolest tie-in lyrics to the original song.

Sorry the vid is just the song, and not an actual video to go along with it.

OH. Not sure if I ever mentioned this (I know I told Jamika about it, though) but a few weeks ago there was this thing called Girl Fest, which was 2 weekends long, I think. And there were performances, speakers, workshops, stuff like that. And Amber Tamblyn (Joan of Arcadia, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants) was one of the performers. She came last year, which I didn't know about. And she returned this year, to give a poetry performance. My friend Keely was planning on going, even to get me a signed book, but she had to change her plans last minute so she wasn't able to go. :( I was bummed that she could go, and that was the weekend I was up at Linfield.

Just now, literally just this minute, I decided that I'll have one post in the future where I post pictures of the things I had to do for my art class. Like my mask, and my sculpture; even though someone broke my hot air balloon. >_< >BRYAN!!!: Do you have an address that I can write you at?? Did you send out a mass message about that and I either forgot or didn't get it?


Jesus, Twilight. -_-

It's so creepy to think that adult women, mothers, GRANDMOTHERS!, are so in love with Edward and Jacob. Doesn't it occur to them that they are obsessing over either fictional characters? One is an under-aged killing machine, and the other is a fucking 800 year old vampire! He's dead!! Which means Bella is most definitely a necrophiliac. Seriously. Or if they're obsessing over the actors, Taylor is 17. Barely jailbait! And Robert literally looks like a crack addict. Come ON!

But I digress...

"You and I Both" by Jason Mraz is my ringtone for my new phone. I absolutely lovelovelove this song!! And it's funny, I've only ever downloaded 2 Jesse songs as my ringtones, everrr. I think it's because some songs just don't sound good as ringtones, you know? If that makes sense. Also, it depends on what part of the song that they play.

Also, "You and I Both" was the first Sing Me A Song Sunday that I posted. :] Random little bit of trivia for your liking, of course.

Anyways, yes. "You and I Both." <3

Song of the day: "One Last Kiss" by Madina Lake

Friday, November 27, 2009

I'm an electronic chronic.

I think that's a clever title, don't you think so too? :P

Well, I'm an electronic chronic because I want all these "toys" that I don't really need. There's a new laptop (with more hard drive space, and I could give Mika my current one), a digital SLR camera (been wanting one since high school) and of course, the Samsung Comeback phone.

If anything, I'd probably get the phone; it's the cheapest out of the three. Plus, I even went through all the trouble as to figure how much the plan will cost me, monthly payments, read up on and watched video reviews, calculated the cancellation fee for Verizon, the whole shebang. And the thing is I honeslty do not need this new phone. But like TC said, I'm a little phone bitch.

Since I got back from Oregon I've been wanting to spend money. Just, on things. Nothing that I really need right now, and not necessarily want, either. I've been having a lot of impulse feelings about things I randomly see and think, "I might buy that."

And it seems to always happen this way, but right before Christmas, I always end up wanting things. Then I feel lame because sometimes I can't even wait a month until Christmas to have whatever it is. Damn, I'm a selfish brat sometimes.

My friend Tiana played this song for me during the summer. The chorus is the only real fun part about it. But it's kinda cool; then kinda not because nowadays everyone seems to be sampling from older songs.

The burn on my arm looks really strange. I've had it for about a week. Got it from work, from one of the trays that just came out of the oven. I wonder when it'll go away.

Song of the day: "When The Day Met The Night" by Panic! At The Disco

Sunday, November 22, 2009

I missed you, Joe...

I missed JGL on SNL last night. :( I wasn't home!! Damnit. I don't know if they put the episodes up online anywhere. But hopefully I'll find it so I can check it out. I saw the commercial for it, but that is clearly not enough JGL for me.

Went to the Academy of Arts yesterday. The bus ride was all right; the only thing is going through Chinatown because the roads are so bad and bumpy, with all sorts of potholes and really narrow lanes. Being non-mobile is kinda lame at times, cheaper, yes, but lame.

The showcase up at Kamehameha was interesting. It was different, to say the least. I guess because our usually teacher, Fuj, he's not there this year. He's getting his master's degree. So their new teacher is real strange and has changed a lot of the curriculum, even though Fuj went over what was suppose to be done this year with her in the summer. Some of the scenes were funny, others I think were totally lost among the crowd.

So after the show a bunch of us were heading to Yogurtland, then Noelle (who was in the car with me and Tiana) was texting her ex-boyfriend who's a freshman in college in North Dakota or something. And they were talking about the showcase, then he mentioned he'd be coming home soon for break. This was one of the texts he sent her:
"i can't wait to go home so i can fuck...i mean see you."

Really? REALLY!? What a fucking douchebag. Needless to say she was pissed, didn't talk the whole ride, and once we got to Yogurtland, he actually called her so she was talking with her and she was crying for a super long time. A couple people had to go sit with her. But eventually everything was fine and we had a good time. :)

OH! I found out Fuj is gonna be directing The Iso Peanut next semester! The only thing is that it's at Diamond Head Theatre. I have a few beefs with the people that perform there, just because of their attitude and the way they carry themselves. But, it's not like I was gonna audition anyways. Diamond Head is too far, and busing it out there would be too long and ridiculous. Besides, I doubt I'd get cast. Also, it's like a pool in high school and college -- a small group of auditioners. But with community theatre, it's a whole fucking sea of talent.

Sing Me A Song Sunday:
"Everything" by Michael Buble
It's a really nice, relaxing song. I'm not much of a Michael Buble fan, granted I haven't really hard many of his songs before. So maybe I should go look up some of his music. But the first time I heard this song it made me feel really calm and happy. :)

I used to like her. When she was younger and did good movies and tv shows. But now she's kind of a disappointment.

Song of the day: "In Those Jeans" by Ginuwine


My favorite from today's PostSecret:

Monday, November 16, 2009

Saying goodbye...

Again. I hate this part.

I think my trip back to Linfield was really good. I had a great time being around the people I missed the most. And even though I didn't see some people, didn't get to hang out and party with others, overall I'm really satisfied with this visit.

I can't thank you guys enough for everything you've done to help me get here.

You guys really don't know how loved I feel, and especially being back here, having everyone tell me it's like I never left, I haven't felt this way in a long time.

The timing of things are just so cruel and ironic sometimes. And this trip was definitely needed for me right now. Going back home...I don't even wanna think about what it's going to be like. But I have to face it sooner or later.

But somehow, eventually, I will find my way back to see everyone again. For sure.

Song of the day: "She's Got A Way" by Billy Joel

The funny thing about this song is that while I was visiting, Brenna said that "there's something about you, Zaida. You've got a way of just embracing the people you meet and making them want to be friends with you." And this song seems to be perfect right now. :)

I love you guys. Miss you already. Thanks again, for everything.



This lady sitting by me in the terminal just took a picture of me and my laptop. Apparently she's got a 15 year old granddaughter who visited HI a couple years ago and loved it. And she just got a laptop, which is what this lady noticed, my laptop with all the Hawai`i stickers on it. So she took my picture, which was kinda neat. :P The people you meet in an airport, right?

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Back in McMinnville

Last night was technically the first day of my trip, but today is the OFFICIAL first full day of my trip. And it didn't go all that great.

Mostly because of my mother's husband and how he fucked up my job back home. But, I won't go into that because most of you already know what's happened since I told you today. Basically, Steven went to my job and told them how I hate working there and I don't like any of the people and all this other shit. It's just...fucked up. Royally fucked.


Anyways. I'm hoping the rest of my trip goes well. I really hope it does.

And I hope I get to drink some alcohol, well, maybe a lot, while I'm here. Seriously.

Saturday, November 7, 2009


Jamika is such a trend setter. :) She's got some great ideas coming out of that noggin of hers.

Ko`u `alemamaka (my alma mater):

Kamehameha Schools Kapālama Campus
Home of the Warriors

(entire campus, aerial view)

(just the high school)

Moto: I Mua Kamehameha (Succeed and move forward, Kamehameha)

School colors: Blue and white
[A quote from my friend Kelsey: "All my Kamehameha peeps will get this: I don't bleed red, I bleed blue and white, bitch."]

Class of 2007
Class size: 438

Years Of Attendance: 6 years (7th-12th grade)

+Preschool, Elementary School, Middle School, High School
+4 gymnasiums, 2 weight rooms
+1 Olympic size pool
+1 football stadium, 1 baseball field, 2 smaller fields
+3 Dinning Halls
+8 Dormitories
+2 Health rooms, and literally, a mini-hospital for the high school: Hale Ola (which, ironically means "house of life")
+Princess Ruth Ke‘eliōklani Auditorium, seats 750

(auditorium/performing arts building, frontal view. My home at school.)
+1 Chapel

(even though I didn't really like Chapel days, it's a pretty badass chapel.)
+Bus shuttles to upper and lower campuses for high school
+24 hour security guards partolling campus
+Native/Indigenous garden

+Named after King Kamehameha The Great of Hawai`i. He was the first king to unite all islands in the Hawaiian chain, including those north of the 8 major islands.
+Established in 1887. Founded by Princess Bernice Pauahi Bishop and husband Charles Reed Bishop.
+Bernice Pauahi Bishop Estate is the largest private landowner in Hawai`i. At the end of 2006 the Estate's endowment was $7.7 billion. Only 6 other US institutions (Harvard, Princeton, Yale, M.I.T., Stanford, Duke) have higher endowments.
+Admissions policy gives preference to students of Native Hawaiian ancestry.
+Kamehameha Schools for Boys was opened in 1887, then in 1894 the Girls School opened. By 1955 both schools merged, now occupying its current location.
+Kamehameha Schools Kapālama Campus covers 600 acres on Kapālama Heights, Kalihi, Hawai`i.
+Three total campuses: Kapālama (O`ahu), Kea`au (Big Island) and Pukalani (Maui).
+We have an annual Song Contest for the Kapālama Campus, in which each high school class competes against each other, singing songs in Hawaiian. Read about it here, it's actually a really cool tradition.

+Mohica-Cummings lawsuit
In 2003 non-Hawaiian Brayden Mohica-Cummings was admitted into Kamehameha Schools under false information given by his mother. She claimed that she was adopted by a Hawaiian family, making her son "Hawaiian." Kamehameha rescinded its offer when the mother couldn't provide any lega documents, however he was still admitted into the school under the agreement that they drop the lawsuit. (PS: This kid was such a douche bag. He thought he was hot shit because if anyone did anything to him his mom would sue the school, again. But he got himself kicked out his sophomore or junior year for drinking in the dorms. Dumbass.)

+John Doe v. Kamehameha
In June 2003, a non-Hawaiian filed a lawsuit against Kamehameha claiming that our admissions policy violated a federal statute stating that it was racially discriminatory to prohibit him/her into the school. The case went all the way to the Ninth Circuit Court. Eventually the case was out-of-court. However, the plaintiff released the amount that Kamehameha paid them: $7 million. In August of 2008 Kamehameha sued Doe for releasing the information; the same day the lawyers for Doe sued Kamehameha on behalf of 4 other non-Hawaiians who wanted to attend the school.

This is some of the high school students that lead the beginning of the march down our campus. We had an all-school assembly my senior year because of this case. All three campuses had an all-school assembly talking about it and updating us on the information.

+Nā `Opio Singers (choir, 7th-8th grade, Secretary)
+Drama club (4 years, underclassmen rep 10th grade, club president 12th grade)
+Kamehameha Dance Company (3 years)
+Speech and Debate Team (1 year)
+Swing and Latin Dance Club (2 year)
+Kaulele Pueo (1 year)
+Creative Writing Club (2 years)
+Ka Mō`i (newspaper)

Random facts:
+I rode the bus to school all 6 years, except those days I had after school rehearsals for drama and dance.
+In the 7th grade I tried out for the basketball team.
+Our cheerleading team is national ranked, having won several national competitions.
+We don't have Homecoming at all, no Winter Ball, only Freshman Dance, Sophomore Banquet, Junior/Senior Prom. (But no prom kings/queens)
+My class has won every award at Song Contest at least once, except for the Women's award. Yet everyone knows we were robbed of that junior year.
+My senior year, my school newspaper [Ka Mō`i] won the Top Overall Newspaper Award at the Annual Hawaii High School Journalism Contest. Chee pono!
+For P.E. you need to complete a freshman run or swim (6.2 mile run or 3.8 mile swim) and the sophomore biathlon (3 mile swim then get out and do a 4.2 mile run). Junior/senior year you need to complete a community event of either running or swimming.
+Senior year for almost an entire semester I spent 5 consecutive periods in the drama room. No one has yet to beat that record.
+While in high school, I participated in 8 plays, 3 Christmas Concerts, and 3 Spring Dance Concerts.
+In the 8th grade I got the Speech Award for my team.
+In the summer of 2006, Kamehameha High School Marching Band became the first band from Hawai`i to travel to China for a concert tour.
+KS puts on an annual Ho`olaule`a, which is like a carnival on its campus. There's entertainment (Concert Glee, Marching Band, KDC, Hawaiian Ensemble, local performers and student bands), food booths, crafts, information tables, fresh fruits/veggies stands, games and rides.
+Kamehameha Varsity Football JUST won the ILH State Champions this weekend!! I MUA!
+Senior year I represented Kamehameha at the Hawai`i High School Shakespeare Festival and got 4th place.
+Junior year in English we read The Scarlet Letter and I learned how to tie a noose for a class presentation on weapons.
+I directed The Breakfast Club my senior year, and I also played Allison.

Favorite Teachers:
+Fuj - Drama teacher/director.
+Mrs. Vogt - 7th grade English
+Mr. Mike - 7th grade Science/8th grade Math
+Mr. Lai - 8th grade Speech
+Takahashi - 9th grade Speech
+Mr. Heyd - 10th grade World History
+Webb - 11th grade AP US History
+Dulatre - 12th grade Honors Economics
+Vinta - 12th grade Shakespeare
+Burbridge - 12th grade Fiction Writing

Favorite Classes:
+English (Shakespeare and Fiction Writing)
+World History
+APUSH (aka: AP US History)
+Honors Econ
+Marine Biology

Least Favorite Classes:
+P.E. (you guys don't even know what P.E. is until you've gone to my school)

Hangout Spots:
+Drama room (11th-12th grade)
+Breezeway (Bus stop area)
+Midkiff Library (in the mornings)
+Mrs. Evensen's room (9th-10th grade, Lara's mom was a chemistry teacher)

Favorite Year:
+Junior year. Even though that was the year I lost my best friend since 7th grade, drama that year was fantastic. I loved class of '06 and they made me feel so welcome and loved in the drama family. That was also the first year I choreographed my own hip hop number in dance.

School Song: "Sons of Hawai`i"

Be strong and ally ye, oh sons of Hawaiʻi
And nobly stand together hand in hand.
All dangers defy ye, oh sons of Hawaiʻi
And bravely serve your own, your fatherland.

Ring, ring, Kalihi, ring
Swell the echo of our song.
Ray, ray, ray, ray, ray, rah, ray, ray,
Let hills and valleys loud our song prolong.

Be firm and deny ye, oh sons of Hawaiʻi
Allurements that your race will overwhelm.
Be true and rely ye, oh sons of Hawaiʻi
On God, the prop and pillar of your realm

Fight Song: "I Mua Kamehameha"

I mua Kamehameha e
a lanakila `oe.
Paio, paio like mau
i ola kou i noa.
Ka wa nei ho`ike a`e `oe
`A`ohe lua ou.
e lawe lilo ka ha`aheo
no Kamehameha e.

Go forward Kamehameha
until you have gained victory.
Fight, fight always
that your name may live.
Now is the time to prove
that you are incomparable.
(and) bring pride
to Kamehameha!

Notable Alumni:
+Senator Daniel Akaka (HI Senator 1990-present)
+Duke Kahanamoku (Olympic swimmer, surf icon)
+Don Ho (entertainer)
+Kelly Hu (actress)
+Makoa Freitas (football player, Indianapolis Colts)
+Brooke Lee (Miss Hawai`i USA 1997, Miss USA 1997, Miss Universe 1997)
+Radasha Ho`oluhi (Miss Hawai`i USA 2006)
+Bronson Sardinha (baseball player, NY Yankees, Cleveland Indians, Detroit Tigers)
+Bryan Ching (soccer player, Houston Dynamo
+Kupono Aweau (So You Think You Can Dance contestant. We both danced in the same company, just different years.)

Damn. I probably went on too much about my school. This took me a real long to finish up, haha. But I also took a break because I started going through the photo galleries on KS's website. I found pictures from the 8th grade choir trip! And pictures I didn't even know existed of me! Those are the best.

Song of the day: "A-Punk" by Vampire Weekend

Thursday, November 5, 2009

"Lost" actor sighting!!

No, I don't mean that an actor was lost, and I saw him/her when he/she was lost. I mean that I saw one of the actors from the tv show, "Lost." I saw Jorge Garcia (who plays Hurley) yesterday while I was at work!!

He was looking at cookies, but then the couple in front of him scared him off. They were bombarding him with wanting pictures and autographs, so he politely did that for them, but then he left right after. :( I was so bummed I didn't get to help him! But still, I came 2 feet away from him.

I had to leave Zane a Facebook comment about that, because I know how much he'll love hearing about me seeing another Lost actor. ^___^

I'm in better spirits today, even though I only had 5 hours of sleep; which is ridiculously not enough for me to function. I also work tonight so I'm gonna be frickin tired, but I'm still feeling slightly better than the past few days. I think it might be because I've been working on my mask for my art class last night and right now. We just had to draw any kind of mask and decorate it according to our personality/background, and I'm really enjoying this. I think I will take a picture when it's done and post it, then give all the details to what everything means. Shoooots.

CAN YOU GUYS ASK TY AND JANET IF THEY EVER GOT MY EMAILS??? I emailed them forever ago, but I never got anything back from either of them. I think I left Facebook comments too, but alas, nothing in return.

I think after work today I'm gonna get a Robeck's smoothie. It's like Jamba Juice, except healthier. My friend TC is attempting to buy one of every flavor thingy. Which works about because he gets one everyday when he works for lunch. He says they're pretty good; I only had one but that was a couple years ago.

Trivia Thursday:
-The Honolulu Star Bulletin is 128 years old.
-Since 2008, Harry Potter books have sold over 400 million copies and have been translated into 67 languages.
-Russian author, Leo Tolstroy, took over 6 years to complete one of his most famous works, War and Peace. I'm about to start his book Family Happiness right after I finish Into the Wild.
-Elephants are the only mammals that aren't able to jump. Poor elephants. :(

Did anyone read my Halloween short story from my writing blog?? That might be one of my favorite short stories I've written in a suuuuper long time. I've been slacking updating since the weekend, so hopefully tomorrow when I'm not at school I can get on that.

Song of the day: "Pop Princess" by The Click Five

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

I'm barely hanging on...and it sucks

So I haven't been online for a few days because my mother decided I shouldn't be able to use the internet because I pissed her off. Good reason. This meant I couldn't do the homework that was due yesterday, tell my group for Hawaiian when I couldn't meet (so now we're meeting when I'm scheduled to work), I haven't done anything for NaNoWriMo, my writing blog hasn't been updated, and I didn't get those important emails from my loan people until now.

It's been a wonderful five days.

But I gave her all my tip money I earned since I started working to pay for the cable bill and to make her give me the router back so I can get online to do all my shit.

Our car is dead. Nothing can be done about it, so we've been busing it everywhere. Which is lame because it's $2.25 one way, so I'm spending so much money just on the bus when I have to go to school and work on the same day. I was gonna go and get a bus pass which would save me some money, but of course my mother opposed and got pissed at me, saying that I was too impatient and I just had to wait because she was hoping they could get a second-hand car. But the chances of that happening are very slim. Whatever. Fuck it man.

I don't know how I'm getting to the airport, since we have no car and I don't know anyone who could take me, but I will be on that plane to Portland next week.

Now more than ever I need this. To just go away for a little. Although the idea of having to return to a shithole isn't so great, but at least for a few days I'll be happy.

ALESSA: Tuesday, November 10, 9:30 pm arrival. Hawaiian Airlines.

JAMIKA: I'm sure I will be in better spirits when I'm up there with you guys. Although I don't know what I'll be doing all day when you guys have class. But I'll do something. I just really wanna be around you guys again.

Wishful Wednesday
1. I wish I didn't come home for school and I was still in Oregon.

Song of the day: "Portrait (He Knew)" by Kansas

Sunday, November 1, 2009


Song of the day: "Sliver" by Nirvana

This is blog entry 69. Hehe. Reminds me of that part from Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure, when the past Bill and Ted ask the future Bill and Ted what their favorite number was. :] Good movie.

So I had a lot of good stuff to write about today. Last night was Halloween and although I didn't do much, I still have fun with TC over. Also, I was going to talk about how rad This Is It was, and how after watching it I missed dancing a whole lot. It's like I got re-inspired to take up dancing.

But instead, my mother killed all the happy and good feelings I had today. She seems to be rather talented at that.

She's telling me I can't go to to Linfield anymore because I need to stay home and help out with the car. I don't know what the fuck she's thinking, as if I can magically make hundreds and thousands of dollars appear in front of me. I don't know if she realizes that I can't get any money back for the ticket that I bought. So if she was expecting me to hand that over to her, she's wrong. Even if I could I still wouldn't.

She said I was selfish for going on an unnecessary trip for myself, of course she would know all about being selfish.

I'm tired of her. I'm tired of feeling trapped being here. I fucking can't stand it.

And I know it's getting real bad when I just think of this, and think of all the shit my mom says about me and the things she expects me to do for her, and then I just want to cry. I mean, I don't even need to get super pissed off and rage to cry anymore. And that's fucking messed up.

God, it's just... Fuck. And even writing about it is getting ridiculous. There isn't anything I haven't already said about this.


Sing Me A Song Sunday:
"I'll Be There" by The Jackson 5
This song was in This Is It, and it is one of my favorite J5 songs. Especially after talking with TC last night/this morning about our friends from high school, and relationships (or in my case, lack thereof) I listened to this song four times today. And since I've been home, this whole year, dealing with my mother, I've wished I had friends that...were there. For me. I really haven't spent much time with friends that are home, not more than 2 or 3, really. Everyone else is always too busy to even take a phone call from me. And to be honest, a lot of my "friends" from Linfield have...not necessarily forgotten about me (or at least I hope not) but just...don't feel compelled to keep in contact with me. And it was even more of an arrow to the heart with Jamika told me how many people actually helped me out with my plane ticket. I thought, well I thought differently than what really is. But that's me and my wishful thinking when it comes to friendships I've had...

God. I'm turning this into a fucking pity party for me. Ugh, what is wrong with me?!

...I hate feeling...forgotten. Or, not-thought-about. Not cared about, really. People say it, though, you know? But they don't show it. That's what wrong with me.