Taking things a day at a time

Monday, January 25, 2010

Best. Day. EVER.

Well, maybe not ever. But it's pretty damn close.

I auditioned for The Princess and the Iso Peanut on Friday, with Kuni, Drew, and Megann.


You guys have no idea how stoked I am about this!! It's my first audition since I've been home, and my first community theatre audition! For a really long time I've been so scared to audition for a community theatre show, because there's such a wide range of actors that go out for it. It's like I'm a tadpole in that group, you know? But, with some convincing I went and just did it.

I think Fuj said I'm part of the ensemble, with 3 roles: Princess Tinks She Bad, a pirate wench, and a Filipino sista, I think. XP

It's hilarious because this show is in Pidgin. Well, half in Pidgin, half in standard English. I guess this is my Comedy of Errors, except better, because it's legit.

It was so hard, because I had to sing. And I'm not that great of a singer. But I'm really happy I grew some balls and went. :) Kuni, Drew and Megann also got cast! Which is really exciting, we had our own audition group on Friday. It was comforting having them there, for sure.

And Fuj is directing it!! Which was the big push for me to go out for it. It's gonna be so boss, this show. Chee!

I'm a little too excited about getting cast that I think I might skip today's theme. I can't seem to focus on a memory of mine, even though there's a billion stored in my head.

I have some ha`awina to do...

Song of the day: "Don't Do Me Like That" by Tom Petty

Friday, January 22, 2010


So. Today's is the 12th anniversary from when my grandpa passed away. That means it's been 12 years since we were a "family" and that just sucks to think about it that way. It's true, though, our family deteriorated once he was gone. What's shitty is that I haven't been up to Punch Bowl in almost 2 years, or something equally ridiculous like that. Mom doesn't like driving all the way out there, and now that we don't have a car, there's really no way to go. Catching the bus, yes, is a possibility. But Punch Bowl is in such a weird location... Anyways, he hasn't had flowers in so long. And his birthday is next week.

Fuck. I miss Gi-chan so much.

I've been wanting to make a post, specifically so I could do my new themes. Unfortunately this week went by super fast, and I found myself busier than I thought I'd be.

I guess it's because of the scene I'm doing for the festival. Sean's had us meet on Wednesday for our first read-through, then told us we had to meet this morning for breakfast, to go over the script again. AND that we had to be half off-book by this morning. So I've been working on that. We need to be completely off-book by Monday. Which is just fantastic. NOT! (Wayne's World reference)

ALSO tonight were the auditions for The Princess and the Iso Peanut. I was sooooo nervous! For several reasons, actually:
1. First community theatre audition. I've only done shows/scene festivals that were part of my class or school.
2. First audition since Man of La Mancha. Whoa, that's been over a year!
3. It's a musical, and I am so not a singer! >_< style="text-decoration: underline;">First Time Friday
Auditioning for a community theatre show

I had always been so nervous about doing anything for community theatre, just because of all the talented people out there, y'know? When you audition for something that your school does, there aren't that many people that you're going up against. But with community theatre, there's a whole group of people from all over the place that are trying for the same role as you are, or just trying to get cast, period. I've avoided auditioning for anything, when I first came home, mostly because I don't drive. And majority of the theatres are all on the other side of the island, or in town; so not anywhere near where I am. Transportation is kinda key. Also, I've been hesitant because most of the shows that are done are musicals. And I really am not a strong singer, or a confident one. So going tonight was a big step for me.

I think I wanted to go was because Fuj is directing it, and Ros is the musical director; two people I know and have worked with before. So it's comforting. They did make the process slightly easier, but I was still nervous! Haha. But, I'm glad I sucked it up, grew some balls, and went. PLUS, I was there with Kuni, Drew, and Megann!! It was our own little Keaka Kamehameha group, and that was nice, to have them there with me. <3 style="cursor: pointer; width: 515px; height: 329px;" src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v144/good_fortune14/post%20secret/farmville.jpg" alt="" border="0">
This reminds me of TC. Farmville is the ONLY thing he does on FB. -_-

The thoughts that family member's cause others to think, right?

This is sad, but sweet at the same time.

And this just makes me laugh so hard!

I'm still so happy about tonight. Even if I don't get cast at all, it was still so good to go and just do it! (Like Nike says to) Even the dumb shit Mika told me about what Mother said only pissed me off for a few minutes. I'm feeling stoked. :]

Also, I watched the Haiti telethon today. It was so insane to see all those celebrities on the phone, and all the performances and speakers that they featured. I really liked Jennifer Hudson, Justin Timberlake, John Legend, and...oh. There was someone else. Damnit I can't remember. I also liked how they featured some of the conversations they had over the phone. I remember they showed one of Steven Speilberg, Taylor Swift, and Julia Roberts. All in all, I suppose people can be cool, sometimes. But, I mean, why do they have to wait until a disaster happens, you know? People only come together when something horrible happens, and that's not right. It should be like that all the time, but of course, almost impossible for that to really happen.

Song of the day: "Walking With The Ghost" by Tegan and Sara

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

He hopena pule maika`i

A good weekend

Oh what a wonderful weekend it was. :) It was great, because it felt like I had a social life like I used to, when I was still at Linfield. So let's recap...

I DID go to my Kamarin's birthday party on Saturday. I spent the day with TC and Jess. We got lunch, cruised for a little, got food and drinks to take over with us, then picked up Sean and had dinner at Jess's apartment. Where we made Kamarin a condom balloon! We wanted to put them in a lei, but we had no cellophane, so the balloon was the next option. I video taped it, so I'll put it up on Facebook soon.

So when we got to Mossman's place, there was about 10 of us there, about 8:30. And we just talked, which was kinda awkward at first, but of course once we started beer pong it wasn't that bad. My friend Jess seriously parties too much, because she was throwing out all these pong terms and rules and whatnot. I just threw the ball, hoping that it'd get in the cup. We were actually leading for soooo long! But then the two guys caught up with us and won. Lame. But that game kinda broke the ice for everyone, and it was pretty fun after that.

Unfortunately he didn't show up. Which, makes sense because he's really not into the parties or drinking. But I was hopeful about him showing up anyways. So when I realized that he wasn't coming, and I realized how silly I was being about it (wanting him to be there) I got kinda angry/bummed/sad at myself. Does that make sense? Soooo, that's why I ended up having 9 drinks or shots that night. Ha. And that wasn't the best choice, so I've learned. So my limit will be about 6. Maybe 7.

Okay. And so like I tweeted on Sunday...I woke up and found 2 new phone numbers in my phone, but I only knew how one of them got there. Haha. I put the one from Adam. And I had no clue how Lokahi's number got in my phone! But apparently it was my friend Kuni who put it in there, so it's all good. XP

And yesterday I hung out with Kuni all day, which was nice. Got some acai bowls, saw our classmate's friend that he brought to the party on Saturday, took picture of Waikiki. Then got TC and headed to Kuni's belated birthday potluck dinner. That was all right, once Jess and her douchebag ex/fuck buddy left, and we started playing a board game. Lokahi was also supposed to be there, haha, but he had homework to do. And he's super dedicated to his schoolwork and all that jazz.

So I wrote this blog yesterday but didn't have time to post it, so I'm still gonna do Monday's theme, since this was intended for Monday. All right, so Memory Lane Monday is pretty self-explanatory. I'm just gonna talk about a memory, most likely from my childhood, or from school or something like that.

Memory Lane Monday
+Being one of the boys in elementary school

My sister's two years older than I am, and somehow she made friends with a bunch of the boys in her class. Well, I wouldn't say she made friends with them, they just sort of attached themselves to her. She never really went out of her way to be friends with anyone; she's very solitary in that sense, but she doesn't mind having friends. Anyways, they would always come out to our car after school was over and talk story with me and my mom. They knew my mom because she worked at the school, and they really were friends with her, too. Well, I basically had a crush on all of them at some point in time, haha. They would come over to our house after school basically every single day, to play video games, to watch movies or tv. We'd play kickball in the street, or go to one of their houses to play more video games. It was just...fun. And I really felt like I was part of their group. They'd look out for me in school, and they'd say hi if they saw me, too. But, then intermediate school came. And they no longer wanted to hang out with some 10-year-old, since they were big, bad 12-year-olds and all. *rolls eyes* I was crushed when they stopped coming over, and...yeah. They just stopped. Being my friends. One day, Arlen, probably the one I was closest to, he came over. When I went to the door I was so happy, and he was with this other boy, Thomas. I thought they wanted to play video games or something, but no, Arlen just asked me for his Backstreet Boys cd back. I was really hurt, and angry. So I lied and said I couldn't find it. I knew right where it was; and I still have it. Even though that period in my life came to a shitty end, I enjoyed those few years I got to be one of the boys, and hang out with them, to feel included. I miss those days a lot. I miss them.

This week Friday there are auditions for The Princess and the Iso Peanut. It's a local play so I don't think any of you to know about it. My drama teacher from high school is going to be directing it!! So a bunch of my friends are gonna go audition, and they're trying to convince me to go to it. But it's a musical, and I really hate singing. :/ I'm not confident at all. But, I might go just to do it. Because if a miracle would happen and I'd get cast, it would be HEAVEN to get to work with Fuj again!! :)

So the scene that my friend Sean is doing is for sure gonna happen. We have our first meeting tomorrow about it. Haha, which is ridiculous, considering that the performance is NEXT WEEK FRIDAY AND SATURDAY!! Yeah. Way to go, Sean. -_- This is very typical of him, waiting until the last minute. So I basically need to have this script memorized in 4-ish days. Mother! I should go print it out, then e `ai, and pono au e hele i hana i kēia lā. (...then eat, and I have to go to work today.)

Song of the day: "All I Need" by Jack Wagner

Z out.

Saturday, January 16, 2010


Song of the day: "R.U. Ready 2 Rock" by Blue Oyster Cult

Today is the first Slang Saturday. I'll be featuring a slang word or phrase, one that I usually use or I hear a lot. I figure I can utilize UrbanDictionary.com with this theme, since that site has become really popular. (I have an entry up there, too!) If it's something in Pidgin I'll really explain it and put it into context you guys can understand. XP

Slang Saturday

From urbandictionary.com:

"stoked" - adjective - to be "stoked" is to be completely and intensely enthusiastic, exhilirated, or excited about something. those who are stoked all of the time know this; being stoked is the epitome of all being. when one is stoked, there is no limit to what one can do.

also, "stoke" - verb - one can "stoke" oneself out by facing challenges or by revving up an engine within oneself to accomplish that which one desires.

*being too stoked just means that you're still not stoked enough*
"Man oh man am i stoked for our upcoming snowboarding trip!"

"Perchance you'd like to stoke yourself out and ask that girl out!"

I started using "stoked" sometime during my freshman year of high school. I'm not sure why, because it was something that I heard the surfers and skaters say, and I wasn't really friends with any of them. Usually you pick up things your friends say, y'know? But I just started saying that, and it became a habit. I like it because it's a more...relaxed way to say that you're excited about something, if that makes sense.

Oh, Jared Leto. You are the perfect frontman for 30 Seconds to Mars. Favorite song by them would be "From Yesterday." His voice is oozing into my ears as I type. :]

Thanks guys, for understanding me in my last post, about The Comedy of Errors. It's one of those shitty bittersweet situations. More bitter than sweet, though. :/ I guess I'm also bitter myself. Because I know I'm pretty much the only one who could do all the Pidgin, or at least teach it the RIGHT way, so it sounds authentic for whoever says it. Because, really, Pidgin isn't an easy thing for most mainlanders to grasp so that they can speak it. And there aren't any other people from Hawai`i that would do theatre...which won't help Janet or anyone. And...well, yeah, I'm just upset about the whole thing. LAME.

So I decided I'll go to Kamarin's birthday party tonight. But thankfully he won't be there, so the pressure's off me. ^_^ Whew. Haha. Actually, I found out why he isn't going. My friend Kuni (who's my wingman, er, wingwoman?), she was talking with her other friend and said that it's because he's not a partier or a drinker, and he never goes to any kind of party like this. And, okay, that makes me like him even more. Because he's not just some dumbass college guy who likes getting drunk every weekend. So this was our back-and-forth texts:

Kuni: Argh it's cuz he's not a drinker or partier
Me: D'aww! That makes me like him even more! :P
Kuni: Hahaha yeah I was talking to Keith about it yesterday n he said if Lokahi ends up going, take a pic cuz it's super rare n he'd jus sit in the corner watching everyone else
Me: Well, neither am I. But I'm still going!
Kuni: Me too! Actually I usually don't go to a party cuz I hate ppl grumbling that I don't drink
Me: I know dude, that's annoying. We'll have fun without drinks.
Kuni: Lol, okie dokie, me n u, no drinking necessary :)
Me: Fo sho! And it could be a trio if SOMEBODY was going. :P hahaha.
Kuni: Haha, I know, I should tell him to come n hangout with us since now he wouldn't be the only non drinker ;)
Me: Haha, yeah, I mean its just nice to go and hang out. Dont gotta drink to have a good time. We should play cards I love playing cards! Haha Im such a nerd.
Kuni: Hahaha yes cards :) I'm such a nerd that I don't know how to play anything x)
Me: I'll bring cards and if anything, we'll make up our own games. Haha, major nerd-age. ^_^
Kuni: Haha sounds good to me.

So. Yes. Getting drunk isn't necessary at a party. And I will be bringing cards tonight. Chee! Haha. Get some Egyptian WAR (Not rat-screw, whatever the hell that is. Weird mainland people and their silly card game names, haha.) action going on.

I'll report back with the festivities of tonight. :)

No school on Monday! So I suppose I should go over Hawaiian. It's insane. Last semester we learned only...six patterns, plus their ho`ole (negative) patterns, so that's a total of twelve. But this semester we're gonna learn OVER THIRTY! Feck. Language classes make me so nervous, but it's a little better with this Hawaiian class. No shame, if I have a question or don't get it, because it's super casual and we're all comfortable with each other. Also, my classmate from high school is my TA for this class. We were in Hawaiian religion two semester's ago, too. We weren't friends in high school, and we barely talked to each other, but, we're cordial to each other. I talked with her and my kumu (teacher) after class on Thursday, and that was cool.

Makemake au e hele i ka Pearlridge. Pōloli au no `aina awakea!
(I want to go to Pearlridge. I'm hungry for lunch!)

I think it's funny I put the English translation in italics, even though most of the time people put the foreign language in italics. Ha! That that English! You know what, my classmate, `Aimoku, he's this 50-something surfer, really cool and laid back. He was talking about how he had to go pay for his class, and this Hawaiian class is about $355. And he got all upset saying, "You know, it's bullshit we have to pay to learn the language of our people. It's our language, our native language. Hawaiian's the state language even! We shouldn't have to pay for this, the government should be giving us this education!"

And he made a good point. It is our state language, and less than 10% know how to speak it. He should be an activist. Dude. He got out of paying for some overdue parking tickets by claiming sovereignty. Awesome. Haha. Anyways I should go catch the bus to I can eat!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

"I'm staying up all night hoping"

What you got boy is hard to find
I think about it all the time
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind

Curse you Ke$ha and your catchy, and timely appropriate songs!!! For reals. This song I've quoted is from "Your Love Is My Drug" and I've lost track of how many times I've listened to it just today! This one part of the song is absolutely perfect for how I feel about the guy I still like and the situation at hand. I still haven't decided if I'm going on Saturday, however, I am leaning more towards the GOING side.

JAMIKA, I was literally listening to Ke$ha's "Take It Off" when I was reading your comment about how you were listening to Ke$ha. XP So cosmic, ko`u hoaaloha (my friend).

ALESSA, would it help if I put the translations??!! :P I can do that if ya want. Hehe.

Also, okay. So I got Alessa's FB message about helping out with Janet's play. And, at first I was kinda excited while I was reading through the message. But then, I slowly got kinda bummed, and eventually to that "they're doing this and I should be there for it, fuck." point. I mean, I understood Janet was going to do her Hawaiian-themed Comedy of Errors, that was already set. But now it'd be really helpful if I were to get pictures and whatnot of Waikiki and the area; it would really help the show and their preparation for it. I get that. And I'm willing to, don't get me wrong Alessa.

But. It's shitty because I'm here, collecting photos and information to send up to Linfield, so everyone else can have this great show, that I, more than anyone in the theatre department, should be in. And I know, that sounds absolutely selfish and rude and bitchy. But. Fuck. The play has a Hawaiian element to the goddamn adaptation! I'm pretty sure I may be the only Hawaiian that was in the Linfield Theatre Department. I can't be in it, obviously. I can't even see the frickin play because I can't fly up there! If I knew how...bland (no offense) A Doll's House was going to be, I would've skipped visiting in November and saved the money to visit to see The Comedy of Errors! But there is no flipping way I can scrounge up enough to go see the show (because I'm trying to save money for Alessa's wedding), and that's what hurts the most. I'm fine helping out, I really am. I'm down for getting pictures and giving info on whatever's needed; I've got an advantage after all. ;) But. Not being able to see how the show will come together, how people will perform it, all of that, that's what's so lame.

Bah. Sorry for going off. Ignore me, I'm being an ass.

Anyways. Talk To Me Tuesday is actually a mixture of topics. I'll either focus on a conversation I've had with someone and talk about what I discussed with that person. Basically tell you about what we said. But it won't just be any kind of conversation, you know? One with a moral/meaning/realization/inspirational though, etc. OR I will feature a quote that I like and give my thoughts about it, what it means and who it's directed for, and ask you guys what you think of it.

So for today I'll do a quote.

Talk To Me Tuesday
"That's what life is: repetitive routines. It's a matter of finding the balance between deviating from those patterns and knowing when to repeat them."
-Joseph Gordon-Levitt

JGL is one of the actors that I admire and respect the most. He has such creative integrity and I can't help but acknowledge that, along with his remarkable performance talents. That aside, he gave a great quote I read this past fall that really stuck out to me. For the entire 2009 year while I was home, things became ridiculous, falling into this routine that I absolutely hated: school, home, argue with mom, vent, be angry/school, home, argue with mom, be mad, go to work, get more mad, stay angry. This shitty vortex I've been stuck in for over a year was really getting to me, because nothing was changing in my life since I'd been home. It was the same, surrounded by people I couldn't stand, in bad environments, without anything constructive to do.

That's when I started writing a lot, writing something every day, in fact. And once I started catching the bus, I gained that freedom to venture out and go places, to do things I wasn't allowed to do before. JGL makes such a good point about making sure that there are things in our daily routines that balance each other, so we don't get stuck in a rut, like what I had been doing, or rather not doing, for a year. Basic routines will always remain, like school and work, every day, all the time. But then there are little things we can do in between to keep us relaxed and sane. Do you guys agree? Or am I just talking fluff?

Back to Hawaiian, with basically everyone from last semester, minus about 5 or 6 people, then plus 4 new students to the class. It's also a lot better now that TC and Misty have class Tues/Thurs so I can hang with them after I'm done. And my coworker Stacey, I get to see her every Tues/Thurs morning; we've decided we'll have breakfast together and just chill. Although, I still say I'm not getting much done as far as school goes. I feel like I'm wasting time. BUT WHATEVER. Just deal with it, right? Right.

OH! So. Sean-Joseph is going to be directing a scene for this festival at LCC. It's on FEBRUARY 5 AND 6 at the LCC Theatre, and he's asked me to be Kinsey in this scene, "The Spring." What's great is that I'M the one who found the script for him!! Haha. For real. I emailed him 3 scripts over the weekend because he didn't have anything! And it's literally in 3 week. Yeah. Typical Sean, but, can't help that. I just really hope he's serious and he gets his friend to do this scene with me. I'm crossing my fingers that this'll really happen, because I want to be back on stage again so bad! You have absolutely NO idea how it's killed me, this whole year, not being in theatre. No idea.

Hmm. It's technically the 13th now, but I'm still keeping my Talk To Me Tuesday. Oh, so this means I can say HAU`OLI LA HANAU KUNI!!! :) <3

Song of the day: "Easy For You" by Billy Gilman

Sunday, January 10, 2010

How giddy can Zaida get??

VERY giddy.

So just now I checked my Facebook. A typical Sunday night, with a few notifications, one message about a possible picnic with my friends. Then, low and behold, I have an event invitation. I click on it, "Kamarin's 21st Birthday Party," says the title. I read through it...typical stuff...drinking, party, potluck, drinking, bring friends, etc.

And like any other curious person I check to see who else is invited. I mean, who wants to be partying with people they A) don't know or B) don't like. So I scroll down the list. And then WHAM!

HE'S invited. And I got oh-so-very happy.

The HE I speak of is the guy I've liked since basically the 8th grade. o_O Yeah, I said it, the 8th freakin grade. I'm sure I've mentioned him before, about how I feel dumb for still liking him even though we weren't really good friends, and I barely talked to him in high school. Plus I haven't seen him since graduation. So I feel super dumb. And now, after tonight, seeing that there's a possibility we'll be at the same party this weekend, I'm kinda getting nervous/excited.

I feel like a giddy little school girl. And that's so...lame.

Ah. ANYWAYS. Say Daybreakers today and it was good. My high school fiction writing teacher said people are telling her it's not that great, but I liked it. Maybe it was because I was into the classic sci-fi parts/feel the movie had. I mean, how can you not go into a movie like that and expect them to make up their own biological and science rules to explain what's going on with the people and blood, y'know? The action was pretty all right too, although the explosions of the vampires were kinda...confusing. I'm just trying to think how that could really happen, but then I have to remember it's not real! Something a lot of people should consider; it's a movie, it's fiction, don't take things so seriously people!

Plus, Willem Dafoe is boss in this movie. :)

From today's PostSecret:

I'm gonna skip doing Sing Me A Song Sunday because I need to get to bed like, now, since I go back to school tomorrow and I need to wake up early to catch the bus. Besides, I do a lot of Sunday themes, so it's okay if I skip for today. Although, know that I am still listening to Ke$ha a lot. And currently I'm listening to Eric Clapton's "Layla" the rock version. Yay!

School tomorrow. Boo.

Saturday, January 9, 2010

"Anyone will do tonight"

Song of the day: "Tell Me Lies" from the Cat's Don't Dance Soundtrack

"Close your eyes, just settle, settle." <--- Sung at karaoke, and it's been in my head since then. I figured I could use that as a title, since it's intriguing...but has little to do with my post. So. Misleading post titles!! Yessss. The movie posters in Pearlridge for upcoming movies taunt me all the time. Especially Shutter Island, because I swear the trailers for that movie have been playing for so long, I thought it was already out! But I wanna see it, because Leo is fucking rad. <3 style="font-style: italic;">Daybreakers came out, as well as Youth In Revolt. I guess we'll probably go see Daybreakers with dad this weekend. Sweeeet.

So, First Time Friday is going to be about the first time I did, said, thought about, went to, liked, whatever, about something; a person, a place, a thing. You get the picture.

First Time Friday
Theatre performance

In the 4th grade I was in an opera called The Masked Ball. My elementary school worked with the Hawaii Opera Theatre so some elementary students got to be part of the cast. I remember for our "auditions" we went to the music room and got called in in pairs. We had to sing the happy birthday song; I was paired with Ngai, who barely even opened his mouth. I was singing so loud and smiling, I was loving every moment of it, of course. So I got chosen to be part of the onstage cast, instead of just singing in the pit. I was originally cast as a nobel, but then I got changed to being a servant. I was upset, because going from nobel to servant isn't exactly ideal. HOWEVER. I got way more time on stage as a servant, more songs to sing, and I was one of the first onstage to start the show. That was my first theatrical experience and I remember being so happy to go to rehearsals after school, and being in the theatre backstage. That was the first time I had to wear makeup, and I recall sitting in a tall stool and I had to climb onto, and they kept telling me how good I was because I didn't fidget and move like all the other kids. My first experience with theatre made me love the stage. It's where I feel most comfortable. Where I want to be.

To answer your question JAMIKA, the job hunt isn't going anywhere. Haven't gotten any calls from anyone, and I've been putting in applications for a while now. *sigh* I mean, work isn't as bad as it was before, but I still don't like working with my manager, and Tiff. They're both such lazy asses. For real. And my manager is just a shit manager; she's an okay person, but I can't stand her as someone with "power" who does whatever the shit she likes and never helps us drop cookies or help with customers. Bleh.

And you're also right, that people can't really empathize when they haven't gone through that situation themselves. Which annoys me when people say "I understand what you're going through." No, NO YOU DON'T!! I can't stand when people say that because it's such a cliche and not true at all. I don't say that to people for that exact reason.

Jesus, why are dance/techno/popish/rock songs so goddamn catchy??!! Curse you Ke$ha and Cascada. Damnit.

Also, Backstreet Boys. The new BSB, without Kevin, because he's not with them anymore. :( Their new single, "Straight Through My Heart" is damn catchy. The music video is kinda hilarious, because it's got a vampire theme and whatnot. At a club, with girl-on-girl ALMOST action, but not really. Haha. Jook! Such a tease.

So I think karaoke was pretty fun last night. I wish I actually took pictures of everyone. Silly me. I took videos, and I'll work on putting them up sometime this weekend. Dinner was also good at Bravos. Good times. Then after. Haha. So Kuni took me, Sean-Joseph, and TC home. I was last, and we just talked outside my house for hours. Like, over FOUR hours!! And we didn't even know what time it was until here mommy called because she was worried something happened to Kuni. ^_^ Her mom's adorable. I feel kinds bad though. Almost everytime that I've hung out with Kuni, she always ends up going home late, like after three in the morning, and her mom checks in with her a lot. It's just 'cause Kuni and I don't see each other all that often, so we catch up a lot, y'know? But still. I rarely ever just...talk with someone like that. I haven't done that with many people, not really.

Anyways. It was just nice. :)

Wish my hair was dry so I could go to sleep already. At least work wasn't that bad tonight; we actually got everything done super early so we kinda just...stood around for a while. :P And Kaena and I made fun of the Justin Bieber wannabe kid. That was amusing.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

HUMP!!!! day.

Welcome to Watch This Wednesday!!

On Wednesday's I'll be showcasing YouTube videos that are my personal favorites (some I may have posted before just to post it, but I don't remember all the ones I've put up. So don't mind me if I repeat any). With the growing popularity and access to online media, there's a shitload of great stuff up on YouTube, you just have to go search for it. On the other hand, there's a lot of bad videos up too, but I'll make sure I put up good ones; unless I wanna get a laugh in on a stupidly hilarious video. Then I'll post that.

OR. I will feature a movie or tv show that I like, and think you guys might enjoy as well. I'll also throw in my own personal review of the movie to persuade you guys even more so to watch it, in addition to my already good taste in entertainment. :]

So, I may have put this up before (I honestly can't remember). But still, take a look-see.

Watch This Wednesday

I think this was all the way back in the summer of 2006 that I found this video. This guy is absolutely insane! For a time when locking and popping were just coming out and getting lots of coverage, this dude ripped it. Another thing about him is that he's comedic in his routine too. Always a bonus whenever you're performing, you know? And watch him glide at 2:19, dude it's so smooth! And I also appreciate the fact that he's Asian. Chee!!

Thanks guys for your comments about my last post. I don't really know what's going to happen in the next few months. Shit, I don't even know about the next few weeks. But, I mean, what can I do, right? Just push my way through it I suppose.

And, yes, I did "apologize" to TC on Monday. Not so much about telling him to fuck off, but for taking half of my anger about my mom out on him. The other half of the anger really was directed toward him. Ha. I hope he realized that.

Y'know, it sucks majorly right now, because we couldn't pay our cable bill. So we can't watch tv anymore. And that's crap because a bunch of the awards shows are going to be coming up soon! :( Major sad face. I know the SAG Awards are on the 23rd, but I haven't seen commercials for the others. And I suppose I won't since I can't watch tv anymore. Irony. So if ou guys watch them, tell me how it goes.

Sooooo I should go to work. Actually I need to have lunch reallyreallyreally quick, pack my dinner, THEN go catch the bus to work. Bleh.

Hoorah for Hump Day! (Notice how I said hoorah, not hooray.)

Song of the day: "Ghost of You" by Good Charlotte

Sunday, January 3, 2010

One step forward

Well. My last blog of 2009 wasn't all that inspiring as far as the future and what lies ahead of me. With a few days of the new year behind, people are finally going back to normal, fading out on all the cheesy "It's going to be MY year!" crap. They're slipping back into reality, finally. If I had to see/read/hear one more thing about how 2010 was going to be the year that they did all their resolutions, I would've snapped.

I'm seriously in like with whoever writes Obama's speeches. They know how to inspire. So with Obama in mind, CHANGE will be my life slogan from now on. I will try my damnedest to see that through.

Starting with some (and by some I mean basically all except one) changes to my weekly themes. They will now be:

+Sing Me A Song Sunday
+Memory Lane Monday
+Talk To Me Tuesday
+Watch This Wednesday
+Triumphant Thursday
+First Time Friday
+Slang Saturday

I'll go into detail for each of the first blog's for the specific theme when I get there. But seeing as today is Sunday, and I kept the same theme, no introduction is necessary.

Sing Me A Song Sunday
"Beautiful" by India Arie
First introduced to this song my first year in dance. This was the senior number, which is really fitting. It's a super cool song about just being able to move on and grow up. I don't even know how to describe her music. It's just really...melodic. And relaxing, the kind of song where you just close your eyes and get caught up in the sound. Obviously it's time that I seriously make changes in my life and do something about the position I'm in. I need to move on with my life. Seriously. Here are the lyrics:

The time is right
I'm gonna pack my bags
And take that journey down the road
Cause over the mountain I see the bright sun shining
And I want to live inside the glow

I wanna go to a place where I am nothing and everything
That exists between here and nowhere
I wanna go to a place where time has no consequences oh yeah
The sky opens to my prayers

I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,

Please understand
That its not that I don't care
But right now these walls are closing in on me
I love you more than I love life itself
But I need to find a place were I can breathe
I can breathe

I wanna go to a place where I can hold the intangible
And let go of the pain with all my might
I wanna go to a place where I'm suspended on ecstasy
Somewhere between dark and light
Where wrong becomes right

I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful

Mmmmmmm... beautiful...

The first song that I listened to of the year was "This Year" by The Mountain Goats. Bailey actually made 2 cds for me when I was leaving Linfield, and that was one of the songs that he put on the cd. It's a great song, simply for its title. I've decided that's one of the songs I will listen to everyday, in addition to the other songs on my list:
+"Just So You Know" by Jesse McCartney
+Body Language" by Jesse McCartney
+"You And I Both Know" by Jason Mraz
+"I'll Be" by Edwin McCain

I've been thinking about money and finances a lot lately, for obvious reasons. Even more so within the last 36 hours because of the news my dad had to tell Mika and me when we saw him yesterday. He lost his court hearing against the Post Office for forcing him into early retirement, which means he won't get any compensation for them being dicks and assholes to him for the past 19 years. It sucks majorly and I can't do anything except REALLY TRY to find a better job, with better people, a better environment, and more offered hours. That way I can cover more of the phone bill than my dad, and still be able to take care of my Linfield loan, the Perkins loan, bills and rent. ...Yeah. Everything is fucked up, and my mother and her husband don't make things any easier.

I suppose having a college degree makes things slightly easier to find a higher paying job, right? Well, that's so unfortunate for people like me that don't even have money for school. Ha. The whole fucking world and every obstacle in it is a stupid vicious cycle. The world is a comedy.

But I digress. For now.

From today's PostSecret:

YES! This would be me, Kristine, and Stacey...if we all found other jobs so we could quit at Cookie Corner.

I think the feeling of rejection sucks. It's everywhere, in lots of things I wanna do.

Song of the day: "Somebody" by Slightly Stoopid

Oh. So I haven't talked to TC in almost a week. Last week I basically told him to fuck off. I kinda don't feel sorry about it, because it was a lot of pent up anger about him always bailing on me and refusing to do things when someone with a car isn't able to go and and drive his ass around. That's really what it was all about. He's blown me off so many times since the summer, I lost track. And he's given so many excuses about not wanting to go do something if Ginger or Misty can't go, because they're the ones that drive and would go pick him up. So on Wednesday when shit hit the fan with my mother and I wanted to go see the movie we were suppose to see a couple weeks ago, I asked TC if he was FINALLY ready to go watch it. But he said no, because Ginger and Misty couldn't go so they wouldn't be able to drive him. So I was pissed and didn't give a shit about it anymore.

I'm quite done with friends that are only my friends when it's convenient for them. I think I'm a pretty fucking great friend; maybe not physically, since I don't live by most of my friends and it's been difficult to find my way to places. And since I'm an ocean away from you guys. But I've always been that friend that listened to what everyone else has to say. I try to be positive for my friends, even when I'm not positive for myself. I keep my real problems to myself, because I know no one really wants to know about all the real life bullshit I have to go through, because nothing more than an "Oh my god, I'm so sorry" would be said. Plus I know everyone has their own things they're going through. Maybe I'm selfish in that way? Keeping my problems my problems and not involving anyone in them.

No. Actually, no, that's not it at all. Honestly, it's because I feel some of my problems (not all of them, but definitely a handful) are a lot more serious than things my friends whine about. And I'm not saying this about you guys, I'm saying this about all my friends: some from Kamehameha, from Linfield, my friends from KDC, drama friends, a whole bunch of everyone. And it's really frustrating because to bring it up makes people angry and offends them. But I mean, it's my opinion of how our troubles compare in severity. And some of these people always complain about things that are so...trivial. So high school. So....ah. Nevermind.

I'll shut up now.